At 12 months, Selgal still wasn't feeling entirely confident and covered herself up in baggy clothes. At my voice lesson we pin down the issues with my articulation, intonation, prosody and accent. Estrogen — Progynova, estradiol valerate, 2mg pills to take once a day. I want to help out as best I can, so if anyone has questions, requests for things to keep an eye on, philosophical interpretations to impart, please get in touch at unexpectedamy outlook. I should have used my gut instinct and stayed away, but the prospect of meeting someone a little older, a lot further ahead was too tempting an opportunity to seek advice and support.
I started this blog very soon after my revelation to get these thoughts out as part of what I consider a time capsule.
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In my relationships with females, many times was I chastised by an exasperating look and tone that caused me to swell with male anger, I hated it, I hated how I automatically reacted to it. Day 19 Today — Sex drive is still there, but sexual functioning is taking more effort. I felt like a paper tiger, that any moment this initial elation would wear off and I would be back in the mind gutter. She invited me round to her place later in the evening to play computer games, which I thought would be fun, you know, a new friend. I have it so damn easy, yet I neither appreciate nor utilise it. I anticipate a lot of time staring in the mirror asking myself if anything has changed in the past hour. I must be the most dour transwoman on the planet.
I had been warned I may have a testosterone boost for a few days while the drugs do their work and they were not wrong. It is less urgent, but no less desired. With that it means eventually disengaging from trans issues, and even from trans people. Selgal was feeling depressed but said she was starting to feel more like herself. I had twenty years of repression, which unfurled itself at distorted paces throughout the next few months. Today's headlines Most Read Harry's ice queen!